12-12-12

So, today is 12/12/12.  I heard this morning that it will be the last time in my lifetime that we will see such a date sequence.

Crazy.

It is also the date that I have had in my mind since May when I had the miscarriage.  There was a good chance that today could have been baby #3's birthday.  I can't really explain the emotional roller-coaster that I have been on since May.  Some days are good - others just flat out stink.  Recently though, we found out some news that keeps us looking forward:

Do you see what I see?

God has a funny way of helping us to overcome our grief by potentially giving us another gift.  :-)  Given the fact that it is still early on in the pregnancy, I'm still very nervous - especially after knowing that what happened in May could easily happen again.  But for now, I am trying to be optimistic and cannot wait for my OB appointment in January where I will hopefully hear a heartbeat.  If all goes well, Baby should arrive the first part of August.

(BTW - this is not public knowledge as of yet.  So to the 1 or 2 people that actually read my blog, you are sworn to secrecy until we officially announce this news.)  :-)

***UPDATE***  As of today (12/13/12) I have an ultrasound scheduled for Monday morning.  To say I'm nervous, would be an understatement...  Prayers appreciated.